When to move on…

Ok, for a little background, I’ve been working at my current job for almost 3 years now. I’ve just been promoted once and it has little effect on my day-to-day tasks, except that maybe I handle twice the projects I used to handle and have ONE person under me.

I guess this is where the problem lies, but rather it’s only the tip of the iceberg. You see, our manager is not doing her job as ‘competent’ as we would want her to be.  It’s been like that from the start.  And she’s been with us for almost 2 years now. *sigh*

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. Early this year, most of my officemates decided to call it quits when our top boss resigned. Sometimes I wish, maybe I should have opted out to. I wonder what I would be doing if I had. Would I be happier? Maybe then I wouldn’t need to write this blog.  But then a part of me is proud, for pulling through with my other officemate/friend. For not letting our department die.

A part of me loves and is very much loyal to the department I helped started. I used to think that, wait – I’m only waiting for a project to get implemented. To taste and see how it is to be able to finish something through.

And now, as some of my projects are about to wrap up. And I see the newbies being able to stand on their own feet, though a bit wobbly, it makes me think. Should I leave now? Or should I stay? It’s like a mother and her baby.  It’s hard to decide when it’s time to let her grow and flourish on her own. How do you know when it’s time to move on?

I still have a lot of plans, lots of journeys to take. And now I am at a crossroad, do I stay further down the road? And maybe there lies gold? Or do i take chances and go off the path and into the forest, where I don’t know what may lie ahead?

I’m starting to speak in riddles, simply put, is it time for me to take another path in my life and quit my job? Where do I go? I feel like I’m no longer growing where I am at. Why would I want to quit? Is it because of my manager? Would changing improving her make things different? I’m not quite sure what to answer. Maybe it would be a temporary solution and I would eventually still leave the company.  But then maybe the team would have flourished a lot by that time, more than what could possibly given the current situation.

I don’t mean to b*tch  rant about my boss like some whining employee. Almost everybody has something to complain about their work. I mean I am grateful for having a job and it pays well too.  But is that enough motivation?  Can you really survive working, knowing that you’re no longer as excited with work?

It’s time for me to rest, just banking these thoughts and here’s to a peaceful weekend.