I think everyone could relate to this poem. It’s really nice and I wish I’d remember this each and every time there was something I thought I couldn’t do or deserve…

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that frightens us.

We ask ourselves
‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?’
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It’s not just in some of us;  it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

~Marianne Williamson~

After weeks of well…. being “apart”…

We’re finally going out again! Yey Be back later with pictures and stories!

Though you’re no longer with us…

Though we know you’re already at peace…

I feel a pang of sadness whenever I pass by your room…

Today would have been you’re 90th birthday… So maybe we’ll whip up something special or order in some pizza and spaghetti and pop open a bottle of wine…

Happy Birthday Angkong!

*I HATE MY LIFE *

…i wish things could just go back to normal.. the way they were.. the happy times…

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How come you are finding it so hard to forgive and forget? Am I that unlovable? that forgettable?

I wish I could understand… and accept.. that you’re blatant disregard for my feelings somehow helps you feel better… I wish I could understand… why you seem to have stopped loving anymore… I wish I could understand… why I can’t stop hurting so much…

Maybe it’s time to end this. This game we’re playing right now. It’s unfair to both of us… maybe we’d be both be happier somewhere else. Maybe…

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I miss my grandpa… It’s been 15 days… tomorrow would have been you’re 90th birthday. Happy Birthday Angkong! I hope wherever you are you’re happy and at peace and no longer in pain…we definitely miss you.

Lord Don’t Move That Mountain1. Lord here I am again, down on my knees in prayer
Lord you promised me that you would always meet me there
Now there’s a mountain up ahead, that I can’t seem to climb
So I’m begging for the strength to try it one more time.2. Now if there were no mountains, Lord I might forget to pray.
And if there were no trials, Lord I might even stray.
But I know the higher the mountain, the sweeter the victory.
Oh Lord ever remind that you will walk beside of me.

Chorus
Oh Lord don’t move that mountain, just give me strength to climb.
For if you should move each mountain, I might grow weaker every time,
And just as your son Jesus, took the cross up Calvary’s hill.
Oh Lord don’t move that mountain, so I may better do your will.

I don’t know the tune of this song, only heard part of it in the movie “Pursuit of Happyness” and really liked the message. I know our family will get over this “mountain”.

*thanks for everyone for their love and support for our family, we truly appreciate it…*